Day Eight: Click.

DAY EIGHT: I HAVE MY NEW LAPTOP AT LAST! Here is a picture taken with my webcam :D

Soooooo happy! Well for now that is all that i have to say. I'm still editing a video, but i made this one too!

Day Seven: E3 to A5

DAY SEVEN: I think i have found my vocal range! It's not where i would love it to be, but i'm pleased to know that where i am at its not so bad. I know that i am more comfortable singing a E5 or F5 then going all the way to A5, but i can hit it, and hit it strong, depending on how i am breathing and  such. I know this has nothing to do with art, but well i've been singing for about 2 to 3 years now (on my own) and trying to see if it is something i really like. Let me tell you, it is. It's one of the best feeling in the world to just sing. Now if you have no idea what i am talking about with E3 and such, its ok, it is basically the notes i can sing the lowest and highest at (comfortably at least). The chart below explains the three type of women ranges (not to say that women can only sing those notes at those ranges, many women can be two or even all three and hit higher notes and lower notes that what their range "should" be, the same applies for men.)
Women: Soprano, Mezzo-Soprano, Alto

Men: Bass, Baritone, Tenor

Depending upon the person they can have a range that stretches into many octaves. I have a 3 octave range, most people do too.

I know that this again, has nothing to do with art, but i love to sing as much as i love to do art. So when i was able to learn all this by myself, i was pretty damn proud. Then again i did just google it and learned it all like that. Anyone could have done it i guess :/ Well that is going to end day seven :D

Day Six: Sleep and Tumblr.

DAY SIX: i am tired.

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*insert annoyed sigh*

Ok so it is my own fault that i am tired. It is 2:52 am right now (well by the time i post this is will be 3.) i made a banner for this blog. And yes, it does look like shit. I had to use paint to make it and well...i messed up like a fucking monkey. Geeze, you'd think i could at least make a decent banner? No, its not possible. Well soon i'll have photoshop and i can go crazy then. On the good side of things, i am pretty happy with the layout of my blog here :D. I plan on working on it more, but for now it's pretty awesome for someone who is used to make layouts from scratch. Oh CSS~ i love theeeeee <3 <3 <3. Mood swing over now. Back to being tired and annoyed. Is it weird that i don't go back and read all the post that i have made so far? Maybe i will right after this. Ehhh. I bet you there reading this must think i am one huge fag for writing all this shit. I know it sucks, eehhh. Its a blog, it's meant to be a piece of crap right? Whatever. It's cool it's cool. What a lame ass i am huh? Like anyone really cares what the hell i have to say. Well if you do, then thank you? Hmmm, this is a good way to vent i have to say. Its nice to just say what i want and not really care what it sounds like or how to comes off. OH and if you have anything to say about my writing skills or sentence structure and such, go ahead and say it, i know i know, i sound like a little whinny kid who is just looking for attention. Ehhhhh! It's just a blog so cool it ;)

oh well hey tharrrr, i almost forgot. For those of you who have been slapped in the face by my stupid post here, may they bring a smile to your face, and how about we all just forget about me being such an ass in this post shall we? I give youuu happiness.

Day Five: Supermegafoxyawesomeh­ot.

DAY FIVE: So, it's been a while since i last made a post. I know, i am already starting to neglect my blog here aren't i? I still have yet to even read the first post i made for fear of further embarrassing myself and my low writing skills and horrid use of grammar.
 I've took a short break from drawing and water coloring for the past 4 days. My sisters birthday was on monday so i had that on my mind all weekend. And i've just been watching youtube videos all the time as well. I planned on doing some life drawing but i think i'm to scared to attempt it. Still i have to try. Geeze its nothing but amazing how i'm not getting better. Maybe i should just draw and not complain right?

Oh! Well A very Potter Sequel came out on youtube the other week. I have to say, it was one of the best shows that i have ever seen. It made its way into my top favorite fan made "thing" ever(since there are made things that fans have made that i love, a guess a musical can go under the category of a "thing"? yes? no.)
The songs and the dance numbers and then the jokes and sarcasm where some of the greatest things i have ever seen! I want more! I think i am going to stop here for today, my fangirl side is going to come out and its not going to be good. HARRY POTTER FOREVER. See, thats what happens :/

Day Four: Drawing

DAY FOUR: I've been drawing all day. Well trying to. I think i'm starting to get the hang of my drawing self again. Going to make some new characters and draw them more often. Even make an avatar of myself :D. The next step is doing more of the life drawing and sketches. God i want to be at Ringling soooo bad! I have no idea how i am going to sit in class everyday and not just want to leave and go paint. If anyone has any pointers on how to deal with that, i would love to hear them. I'm going to go draw somemore, my hands are itching to draw draw draw.

Day Three: Shower

DAY THREE: I've woken up this morning to find that i feel gross. SO first thing i am going to do after this post, is just take a shower. Last night i tried to draw as much as i could. I ended up not doing as much drawing as i wanted, and well now i feel like i'm slacking, and i really thing i am. There is no way i am going to get into Ringling if i keep slacking. So after my shower i'm just going to draw and draw. I'll post some pictures of what i have soon. It's getting hard again to be happy. MAn this is just sucky. Well, i'm the one that wants to go to ringling, so i've got to work harder. Just drawing all the time. That's the only way things are going to get better. I guess i'll just go on google and find a couple photos i like and try to copy them into my sketch book and see what happens. This is again a short post but i'm not in the ranting mood so i guess that can't be helped. Ciao.

Day Two: Recoop

DAY TWO: I think I'm better now. My last post was more than i was hoping it was going to be. Ranting is something i'm getting used to doing. I need to stop. So, yesterday me and my family, minus my mother who is at a convention this weekend, went to New Smyrna. The beach was really great. Since there was a breeze, the hear never really was an issue, well that is if you aren't sitting in the car with the doors closed. I was really against going, but i went anyways. I was the one that did most of the packing and planning. It was nice to just sit and relax. I don't have alot to say at this moment. Yes i do, but i'm not sure what to say. I'll just say more later.

Day One: Commitment

DAY ONE: There are many ways I could start off this blog. What the hell, lets just start with the basics. I'm an 18 year old girl named Stephanie who loves drawing and painting, I spend my extra time knitting and watching tv. My goals in life? The only thing I am mildly good at is art. Leave to me to want to paint and draw for a living. Well no, that's wrong. I really want to just sit on the computer for the rest of my life making animations. I want to be a computer animator. Its far to frustrating to even explain all my reasons for wanting to be one right now. Lets just get this introduction over with. I've made up my mind. I'm going to make a new commitment. This blog, this thing that seems to be the new thing to do.

I promise to post everyday. Will anyone read this? Of course not, why on earth would you spend your time reading this stupid crap that some girl rights? Far be if from me to assume that my writing is the best in this whole world. It's not. Whatever. The fact is that this is the only way i'm going to get anything done in my life. Journals and dairies are too annoying to keep me going. I can never keep one for much longer than a week, and this has to be the 10th blog i've tried to start. If it fails i'll just make a new one, if not, than good. I'm just mad today, i don't know why, i just am. Again i feel alone, but not because i'm an outcast, but because i just can't get close to anyone. This is stupid to just ramble on and on, but i don't care. No one around me can take the time to listen or hear what i say. I'm to scared to even say a single word to my friends. Its annoying how my own feels and emotions take so much control over me. I'm just mad. That's it, just mad. Crying helps but only a little. Once again i am here just rambling, hope someone will say something and listen but i doubt that its going to be that way. In truth i want to be popular.

I want to get people to see this and tell me how great it is and how they feel the same way. Something in me says "just make a blog, that way people will see you and talk to you and tell you how great you are, how much of a wonderful person you are, that you are beautiful and that you are perfect and that everyone loves you so much." that's what some voice in my head is telling me. It's annoying because it makes me feel fake. I guess i am fake foe feeling that. I am always nice and then i get so angry inside that no one gives me as much. i feel entitled to be give presents and complements all the time. What the fuck is wrong with me. I don't deserve any of that since i really haven't done anything worth such things. God look at me complaining and saying all this. Its the truth. Thats the part that sucks the most. Thats is what i feel inside. I'm jealous of all the girls around me. They are skinny and pretty, sexy, smart, and just have this glow around them that pulls people in. All i am is nice. No one sees more as anything more. No guys can get over the fact that i'm fat. I am fat. 220lb is FAT. God i want to get over all this vain feelings and just paint. But i can't, or i haven't. So i guess this is what my commitment will be. To post everyday that i can and just tell everything i am feeling. Along the way i'll post my art and my vlogs and just talk to the internet and anyone who reads this. So bring it on life. I'm going to keep up saying this, and just letting it all out. I'm done hiding.

This is one way to start i guess. Maybe with this i can make it to a point where i don't give a flying shit and just live, get over this crap and get out of high school. Ringling is the only place i want to be right now. I just want to a new air to breath, new people to see and feel. i want paint under my nails and grass in my hair. Geeze what the hell did i just write? I don't care. Read this if you want. Fuck off if you hate it. I'm tired of being the nice girl who doesn't say anything. I'm mad and today i'm going to stay mad and smile when i see someone. Fuck, what is wrong with me? My brain is going crazy. Well, i'm going to stop now. Thanks for reading? Idk. :/
-Stephanie.